Abandoned.

Abandoned.
Left to wipe my own tears.
Left to fight my own fears.
I was so comfortable with you presence.
Now i'm so devastated by your absence.
Tell me what i did to you.
Im sorry, I never meant to do
Whatever ran you away from me
My GOD please bring him back to me.
SO long ago you left the scene
Snatched your support from under my lean
I really did NEED you there
It hurt so i could hardly bear.
It still hurts way down to the bone.
BEYOND the bone, it hurts my soul.
Still to this day i long for you
I dream of you, I cry for you.
I've asked my GOD why i cant let go
But i dont have an answer, i just dont know
But I know it takes my breath away
Your on my mind every single day
My chest gets heavy, And i zone out
I hide from the world to sit and pout.
I'm miserable without your vibe
I feel like i NEED you in my life
I know i'm not crazy, i just dont understand
How after so long i still miss my man.
damn there goes another tear
one more cry for one more year.
How long will i be so unhappy
When will i realize he's not coming back to me...
Oh GOD, i beg please heal me now
This pain wont heal it is so foul
You've let me get over much more hurt
Why cant i move past the one i loved first.
I never mean to question my LORD
But over n over my heart i've poured
Out to you about this pain
The wound keeps opening again and again
I dont know what i'm suppose to do
I dont know if i'll EVER get over you.
I wasn't ready to call it quits
Its just not fair this cant be it...
Abandoned with no reason at all
And thats what hurt the MOST of all.
He left me....
He left me. He left me. I cant say it enough, HE LEFT ME.
I.... I cant....it hurts so bad. Abandoned. He was all i had.