once upon a time

Down about a man...against everything i am I console my friends, on troubles with their men But when it comes to me, I just SO can't see... What about what I said, when my best friends heart bled... sounded so good at the time, now its nowhere in my mind. Last night I just cried. Hopin that its a lie That shit cannot be. I cant have my heart bleed. Its already scarred, and its fragile by far. I had warned him of this, while i was still in "bliss" Once upon a time, when he was still in my life He was the shit to me, but was too guarded to see. Tried to make me seem crazy. I'm TOO MUCH OF A LADY. But he was too busy, pointing fingers at me. Innocent to the T....but made LOOK so guilty. So it frustrated me, and just made me angry. Things only got worse. She he then ran to her. Or maybe not so...maybe she was there befo... Dont matter now-a-days...cause now she's there to stay. I got moved out the way, and completely replaced. He just had no idea, how i kept it so real. Now everything that i feel, makes it real hard to heal. I know it was my choice, to be harsh with my voice. Part frustrated at ME. But he just wouldn't see... I aint lie but ONE TIME...way before we crossed the line. I was SO open and tru, and he wasn't even my dude. Steady disrespect, and developed neglect Arguments like a couple, while emotions, like, DOUBLED. We BOTH crossed the line. I was YOURS, you weren't mine... And i only like your intamacy, cause i liked YOU intellectually. After sayin so much, and playin with love Then you twisted you words, but babe YOU SAID IT FIRST. So you aint mean a thing, that you ever said to me.... Thats too bad, cause I DID. Guess it didnt mean shit. Always wantin somethin, thats way outta my reach. Guess I just cant have, what i wanted so bad. But i thought i could do, what i put my mind to.... I put it to you, and I put my heart too... But in "LA-LA-land", I musta been again... Cause now I'm just hurt. And now you got her. Shoulda woulda coulda, wouldn't a worked in this mess... So congrats on your gain. And i wish u the best. Once upon a time...you was THAT NIGGA to me....but you just aint know, thats 2 bad u couldnt see. ~Red