elements of pain

I'm cluttered with so much emotion, its hard for me to breathe.
I cant see my hand in front of myself, because your choking me.
It's like i've come to a dead end, on an ONGOING street. Your like an invisible offender, that keeps knocking me off my feet.
My oxygen is getting low, my brain's starting to drown. You use to be my life saver, now your pushing my head down.
My heart beats everyday for you, and you cant understand.Unconsciencely your drowning me, please give me your hand!
And for one quick second you realize, and back off for a chance, but slowly you creep back up on me and choke me once again...
I'm strong but i'm not strong enough, I just cant get away. It hurts so bad, but i love you so much, that i just have to stay.
So i take a deep breath and hold it in, as life is drained from me; and let you have your way and you get what you need from me.
You lie to me and talk to me like i'm so ignorant. I stare at you and wonder where the hell your respect went.
You use to love me, treat me right, i was a HUMAN BEING. But your not the person I knew before and I'm just your PLAYTHING.
My only hope of breaking away is that you'll set me free. Whether it be to to change or just to turn your back on me and leave.
You've made me hate myself so much for not having the strength to deal. This pain instilled, it runs so deep, I'm never gonna heal.
A happy day comes once in a while, where "I love you" seems to float from your smile; and i'm sucked back into you once again, to go that extra mile....
And then the darkness settles in as I begin to see... your hands have slipped around my neck again....YOUR CHOKING ME.