My disease

Get inside, travel through my vein
All around, can you see my pain?
Feel my blood flow slowing down...
Hardly moving....little sound
Swim your may into my heart,
Bruises that came from your part.
You see yourself? Inside of me?
Weighing my heart down constantly?
See how much love you get from me?
How much I care? DO YOU SEE??
Change your route to ARTERY Lane.
Find your way up to my brain...
But enter very cautiously.
Unlock the door, dont lose the key.
Wanna see how things use to be?
Walk over to MEMORY.
Be careful it may hurt your eyes,
Cause in this closet, the truth there lies...
July 2000, summertime...
Remember when you became mine?
Keep looking, see all our goodtimes?
See how the emotions climb?
Listen now..my pulse will zoom...
That's when i fell in love with you.
Whatever you did, I didn't mind.
Thats how the love start goin blind.
Fast forward to 2003,
The 10th day of February...
Look at how happy you made me,
And how anxious I use to be.
As time went on, you went astray...
Notice the different shades of gray...
The darker the gray, the more the rain,
Decrease in joy, increase in pain.
LISTEN....Do you hear your lies..?
You see how many times i cried??
November 18th, the gray turned black...
The end of the road, no turning back.
MEMORY is done, there is no more.
Exit now, and close the door.
Take VESSEL Rd. to Love's Demise;
Past tear ducts, straight to my eyes...
These are the windows to it all,
Dont lean to much, you might just fall.
There is no glass, no stopping place.
Puddles of pain leak onto my face.
Do you see your pictures everywhere?
All the time i spend to stare?
Hold onto something, here comes the floods...
They rush out, hit the floor in thuds.
There's pain inside these salty tears.
There's hurt, regret, stress, guilt and fear.
Can you see the poems that I write?
The only release that does feel right...
Do you see the scribbles in my notebook...
How our kids names, and ours combined look?
More rivers flowing past your feet...
This time expressing my DEFEAT.
I just can't get you out of me.
It's almost like your part of me.
The number one neccessity
That makes me function properly.
But also just like a disease
Thats very slowly killing me.
Stop hurting me, make me happy
Or if you cant, just let me be.
Depart from my eyes heart and memory...
Let me begin my recovery.
I hope you learned from this journey
How damaging playing with love can be.
What happen? Have you forgot about me?
You fed me to the wolves, and they were so hungry....
You've damaged my life now I cant BE
You Sir, Yes YOU, were my everything...